Of gods and girls

by Mr. J. Medeiros

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released July 10, 2006

Written by: Mr. J. Medeiros
Produced by: Mr. J. Medeiros
Guest producers: Illmind, Stro Elliot, 20Syl, and Joe Beats

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Track Name: Amelie feat. 20Syl of Hocus Pocus
We haven’t met but I’m the one hoping
To get inside your loneliness
With a whisper that lifts ya
A gift of scripture
A picture of holiness
And I’ll be waiting till it’s only us
And the day you hold me
Just to know that this must be scared
With the trust of a naked infant
The instant life is held
See how the night is held
A gallery of galaxies
With you its most attractive piece
You call to my spirit
Through the walls of my flesh
I fall when I hear my darling
How I long for those words
To transform my world into your platform
Where we act out the Song of Solomon
I’m following your scent
Till all logic is absent
And you are all that makes sense
My defenses are down on purpose
I want you to hurt this pride
Murder this ego
As you work inside
Nurture this need to
Breathe you in like your morning air
And exhale when stars appear
From up here I can only dream to kiss you
Until then I'll miss you
Track Name: Silent Earth
Before the war of the worlds I draw closer till it’s all over
The All Knowing knocking doors till they all open
I crawl hoping for a moment to stand
Only to fall sober with an omen in hand
I call for Oprah but she won’t understand
What’s going through a mans mind media land minds
They feeding on a mans pride
Bleeding and cant find a tourniquet
This evil got its thorn in my side and keeps turning it
People we were born to survive and be permanent
The sequel is the morning we rise
The Kings returning
To keep us from burning in our own flames
Learning to speak but I’m worried if its long range
Surely the speakers will reassure they want change
Hurry the reaper is burying the whole game hold it
We maintain the same pain but can’t show it
From hand made to brand name gangs to famed poets
Planting seeds and yet they cant sow it
Got me standing in the hands of thieves
Planning a take over
I’m demanding that they break open
They the poison in the lung that shrank
From chain smoking
I blame the choking on the air that we breath
Inhale the atmosphere of careless greed
On an atlas were we share the need
But don’t care to feed the lonely
On our bodies bare the words that read
Somebody please hold me

Ever since the day that I was created
I never thought that I would state
That I wasn’t afraid to die
But today my sight is better then the naked eye
I’m a letter from the editor
Telling ya feathers were made to fly
And forever was made for I
Written within the text of intolerable sin
The blame resides
Together our names collide till the taste of bread and wine
Restore the people to the place they coincide
With the omnipotent glory of God is infinite
The intricate meanings of life define innocence
Divine instruments
Depending on who breathe through it
Designed with a sense of harmony
Arm me with sheet music
The type the meek speak fluent
Till I’m knee deep in ruins
With a seed that keeps blooming from concrete
Pursuing an illuminate kiss
Competing with a lunar eclipse
I’m speaking of the tunes we equip
With a T.V. and a super model
The inherent need to be free
From who we choose to follow
And the tools we use to hollow our existence
I refuse to loose this battle
Choose the power in resistance
In the hour of indifference where the innocent bleed
Inhale the atmosphere of careless greed
On an atlas where we share the need
But don’t care to feed the lonely
On our bodies bare the words that read
Somebody please hold me
Track Name: Strangers
I feel alone in a world were nobody knows me
Like a leper at the gates of the city you wont hold me
Being my one and only not being the one who owns me
Its funny how you show me no fear of being lonely
But we’ll see what happens when there’s no submission
When you’re the captain of this ship
And I just wont listen
As if I just happened to get out of this stone prison
Why you laughing at my feelings right now
Like you wont miss them
It’s just another blow to the heart
Like you know when to start hitting
Cus my shoulders will drop
Holding a rock frozen till you’ve open the spot
Now you throwing the rock
Hoping to have broken the lock
Hold up stop while you take advantage of my defense
You’re damaging my reflex I can manage my secrets
When I’m standing on regrets deeper then sea gets
I’m weak from the sleepless nights speaking on respect
Just seeing how we get when we let loose
Got me feeling like we reject to see that truth
It’s the evidence the proof that were hesitant to use
Instead of getting a win it’d be better to let us loose
And weather your looking cool like who’s to blame
Or pressuring me to choose which rule s to change
I’m forever your tool in this useless game
Together baring the wound of a useless pain
Goodbye

I wish I had the courage to say to you
All the words in this song I play for you
Goodbye
I wish I had the courage to say to you
All the words in this song I play for you

Alright forget it lets get deeper
You aint thinking forever so I aint either
But yo I’m scared to be alone so I just can’t leave ya
There I said it yeah its pathetic but I can’t deceive ya
And I don’t believe ya being in the moment aint right
Yo a moments just a second when your hoping for life
And I know you don’t agree
But when your older you might
I don’t mean to condescend you
I’m just showing you light
And this advice I should take with me
After we break quickly
Walk in the opposite way
All for my sake simply
So my escape will be easier to make
In me I lack the strength to leave
Even when you’re aching me
I know it’s taken me a while to say this
I’d smile and say yes and try to look painless
Relying on my eyes more while using my brain less
You thought I was your fan base cus beauty is famous
So blame us exclusively abusively we grew to be
The two who soon will be
Singing tunes on how things use to be
When I was choosing you
But you weren’t really choosing me
Now I see we’re through
You don’t love me your just use to me
And our excuse will be how we remained strangers
And the proof will be written in the same language
The same you the same me the same us
Now that we understand this truth lets let it change us
Good bye

I wish I had the courage to say to you
All the words in this song I play for you
Goodbye
I wish I had the courage to say to you
All the words in this song I play for you
Goodbye
Track Name: Constance
An old man vacationing he stands patiently
Under a hotel sign that blinks vacancy
He’s thinking maybe he’s to late to make the drop off
Until a truck coming his way breaks and stops short
And now he’s out of sorts
And you can see he’s sorta nervous
Walking to the passenger door to meet his ordered service
This is someone’s daughter working
Blames his conscience when the driver says,
“She’s my youngest, her name is Constance.”
He comments, “…and its only six dollars per visit,
Just don’t leave any marks on her, it hurts business”
Thought for a minute then confessed, “That’s fair.”
Since it was three dollars less then his cab fare
“How old are you honey?” she says, “I’m thirteen.”
Her nose was runny its raining in the Philippines
He hands over the money in a chilling scene
The truck drives off
And now he’s on the hunt to kill her dreams
The sign reads no vacancy
He leads Constance to a room he has rented for taping
See he’s about to turn six into six thousand
And all you have to do is click on your web browser
It’s not illegal to use rapping as a cash crop
As long as it says she’s 18 on your laptop
The sound of rain is her backdrop laying there
Like she’s waiting for somebody to say they care
While the tears of God fall down the window pane
She feels unholy like the Father doesn’t know her name
Marry Magdalene and the women at the well
He knows everything that happens
And in His arms she fell

He’s twenty one and all alone in his household
He’s tempted by the quiet he feels
And the mouse he holds
The silence of his spouse is cold
So he’s about to help that man get his six thousand gold
One click and now she’s sold
Withholding is conscience scrolling trough the comments
There she is looking confident a picture of Constance
In a series of video clips “Adult Content”
The title blinks in bold letters like the vacancy sign
It’s his time to go get her
It’s like his mind doesn’t know better
Her soul is crying out, “Let me go.” but he wont let her
He got her trapped inside his media player
Held captive by his need to replay her
It’s a matter of he being here and she being there
That’s why he doesn’t feel the need to care
Guilt is in the seed he bares
Spilling his shares of the profit
On a five hundred million dollar market
Where children are regarded as product
And traded like stock tips
And rapped for the sake of our pockets
His laptop sits like a window into Constance’s room
Where he exits cus its almost noon
And he’s expecting his wife home soon
With new clothes for the baby
She’d be angry if she saw his new lady
A thirteen-year-old Filipino named Constance
Trust me girl God has not forgotten
If He knew Mary Magdalene and the women at the well
He knows everything that happenes
And in His arms she fell
Track Name: Change feat. Strange Fruit and Rez of The Procussions
Welcome to the struggle
Where a poet’s gotta rhyme hustle
Going through it blind
Cus I know its more then mind and muscle
When the Divine humbles my pride crumbles
My eyes bubble with tears
Making it clear where I stumble
It’s like I’m double when in trouble I got two sides
My life’s a puddle till the sudden glimpse of blue skies
Carries the rain away it varies from day to day
No matter where we say we’ve changed
Remember Who remains the same
We sending prayers out in His name
With the hopes it might help you cope
Given the praise to God if you felt what I wrote
Head nodding till I melt into notes
Heart throbbing put a swell in my throat
Smooth sailing till we fell of the boat
Now we swimming in sin
Treading waiting for out ship to come in
Deep breath just before the water entered my chest
The Author of Life offers His life vest
Track Name: King of Rock Bottom feat. DJ Vajra
From an outsider looking in
Its like look at him another man that couldn’t win
Another stand with a crooked grin
On the other hand he blames the land that took him in
A product of environment
The book the pen they wonder where the fire went
He shook the hands of the one he admires
He’s hooked again
In the club he acquires a small taste for loneliness
He’s always saying how it’s only us
He flys in with the three wise men
He buys into the Jack, John, Jim
This is where the Captain swims on a sinking ship
He’s the only passenger and he aint thinking quick
He drinks he sips he took it down
He winks and tips his crooked crown
Look it now He’s spoiled by the Royal one
Coiled in the corner father guilt he the loyal son
Waiting on his joy to come in the form of another pour
Yo, pour me one

Cus if he only knew
How much he meant to you
So many prayers that never got sent to you
The Devil got him resenting you
For all the things he did and never meant to do

He’d have the nights over heaven
More then half the time
When life gave him lemons he grabbed a lime
Is it his faults or the Gin’s the Malt on his chin
The salt of the earth is now the salt on his rim
It’s the call of the Jim to see the Beams of his ceiling
If his walls were any thinner
You could see he was kneeling
On his bathroom tile but not in prayer
Passed out by the smile that got him there
Another bout in a self-doubt nightmare
Got him in a glass house with this right hand
Holding a Mic stand denying what his life is
Hold him to the light and you’ll find he’s self-righteous
Can you believe the one that wont bleed
Is asking you to cut yourself indeed
Looking at the flower brother check the seed
You shook by the power of a reckless greed
A washed up hero enjoying his drink again
Maybe in the morning he will think again
Until then the only sunrise he know
Gets mixed with an orange juice and Cuervo Gold

Cus if he only knew
How much he meant to you
So many prayers that never got sent to you
The Devil got him resenting you
For all the things he didn’t and never meant to do
Track Name: Half A Dream feat. Marty James
Eighteen years in the making
Her heart is heavy in fear of it breaking
And every tear is an awakening
Its brings her nearer she appears to be taken in
By the sight of a girl she doesn’t recognize
Her own image yo how could she forget those eyes
Probably cus the one that’s behind them
Has grown a little weary of the One who designed them
All she ever wanted was to feel pretty
She pours pain in her heart till it spills pity
Blind to her own masterpiece
She hangs pictures on the wall
Of people she would rather be
This isn’t how it has to be
Visit pass the screen
See how they fit false images in magazines
Media type magic photo shop press
See how it looks like plastic yo its not flesh
She’s a product of the products they sell
Another project in a marketing cell
And it’s getting even harder to tell
Herself her bodies beautiful
Trying to copy what computers do

That don’t mean nothing
Wasting your time
Looking for something you’ll never find
Look through the make up
It’s not what it seems
When will we wake up from half of a dream

His wallet size is a call to the eyes of most women
Plus the car that he drives and his bold living
Meant to symbolize he’s goal driven
Now He’s starting to wonder
Why everyone he knows is gold digging
From his home living to his bar hoping
Wherever he is he knows his credit cards got him
Feeling like a star shopping
With the fear of rock bottom
Steering his wheels and not stopping
Yeah he got problems but he wont let them find him
He’d rather not solve them then let them redefine him
See he can’t see behind them only his need to hide them
Within his dreams he ties them
On to everything he’s buying
He sees an item he makes a purchase
Never seeing inside him that there’s a greater purpose
And everything he’s paid for is straight worthless
If what he’s made for doesn’t break surface
He’s a product of the products he sells
Another project in a marketing cell
And it’s getting even harder to tell
Himself from his merchandise
The search for gold aint worth your life

That don’t mean nothing
Wasting your time
Looking for something you’ll never find
Look through the make up
It’s not what it seems
When will we wake up from half of a dream
No one ever said it was easy
Life will break you down if you let it
But you gotta work
But you gotta work through it somehow
I know how you feel believe me
You got to make a point to just stand your ground
The time is now without a doubt
We’ll get through it and figure it out
That don’t mean nothing
Wasting your time
Looking for something you’ll never find
Look through the make up
It’s not what it seems
When will we wake up from half of a dream
Track Name: Keep Pace
He’d like to break ya
Put a gun to your back try and take ya
Couldn’t run from the facts
He gotta make ya
Suffer cus your loving aint an act for fame nah
Never let him hold back your flame ya
Better then that the devil can’t change ya
On the same level with the disciples and kings
Your value is never measured by the price of your things
Your life is worth more then that
Your body is built to weather any storm in fact
We ere never meant for any harm relax
See the stars in heaven you were born for that
While the angles blowing horns
Cus your back from the dead
In a middle of a war you trapped in your head
I’d rather chase the wonder of the light instead
And keep the pace till the hunger of this child is fed
He’d like to blame ya
Get a hold of your life try and tame ya
The force behind the divorce of all nature
Running it’s coarse as the source of all anger
Got a habit of ignoring a stranger
No matter how you have it we are all in danger
Some will laugh at ya some are called to change ya
Some will blast at ya yo your drawing the same blood
Walking these killing fields
Absorbing the pain that our children feel
Restoring the Name and the will we yield
Rejoined in the same cus we will be healed
And we will overcome this depression
And the power we’ve succumb to
Will shower these blessings
When in the hour of questioning
Just remember the flowers and how God dresses them
Forget what they told ya
Love is real expect it to hold ya
The struggle you feel is helping to mold ya
The hunger is real and its felt in the soul ya
Better never let him control ya
Together as soldiers forever we’ll grow ya
Never know who will try and overthrow ya
Lie and withhold ya deny that they know ya
Who am I if I cant be
The person that I was created to be
I write a verse and relate to me
On the subject of worth I hesitated as I painted the scene
Heavy laden with a pain of a dream that’s unsung
I’m to blame when refraining to reach for someone
We the same on this earth from the dirt we have come
No matter where we’re from we’re still looking at one sun
He’d like to break ya
Put a gun to your back try and take ya
Couldn’t run from the facts he gotta make ya
Suffer cus your loving aint an act for fame nah
Never let him hold back your flame ya
Better then that the devil cant change ya
On the same level with the disciples and kings
Your value is never measured by the price of your things
Your life is worth more then that
Your body is built to weather any storm in fact
We ere never meant for any harm relax
See the stars in heaven you were born for that
While the angles blowing horns
Cus your back from the dead
In a middle of a war you trapped in your head
I’d rather chase the wonder of the light instead
And keep the pace till the hunger of this child is fed
Track Name: Money feat. Pigeon John and DJ Vajra
The distance between what I want and really need
Is often further then I’d like to believe
I find myself fighting to receive
That of those temporary treasures
Bent on those various pleasures
Meant to measure a man
Feeling the pressure cus the world got its hand
In my wallet
You can call it a habit
When all the worlds a mall
You feel the draw of the magnet
If I saw it I had to have it
Caught in the traffic
Where mans happiness is bought like magic
Those thoughts are tragic
With no logic only madness here
It’s all a hat trick that got your pockets rocking rabbit ears
I use to laugh in fear
Never seeing my blessing
Then something happened where
I felt the need to be in question
Me or my possession
People or property
I seek to find the lessons
That teach to treat each properly
Learning to give with no worries on the give back
Cus when your dead homeboy
Whatcha gonna do with that

Money it seems funny the meat we’re hunting
Is money like we bees to honey the queen is hungry
For cash
It won’t out last we out fast
When we out pass the last meter we out dash
For the green
Some call it the American dream
Be aware of the scheme
Drowning for that glare in the stream
Yo it’s the doe
If we can’t grow we can’t move
If we can’t let it go then it cant be used
Track Name: Her Wings
She walk like she got headphones rocking Aretha
Lady of light the type that you’d like to speak ta
Out of reach sorta speech like a drink of water
Far from elite though it’s hard meeting a Kings daughter
Not really in to order but her expectations
Call for a man to be strong plus patient
See you can admire the flower but understand
You dealing with a women and a higher power
And my Father in Heaven must have gave her the earth
Cus the money don’t impress her
Yo she knows what she’s worth
And she knows rebirth she can feel it
She went through too much hurt to conceal it
It’s not what she say it’s the way she reveals it
And now the world wanna steal it
That spirit to which her bodies a home too
Sorry world she’s out grown you

Out of the cage to the wild blue
The skies too great she gotta escape and fly through
With a smile to kind of remind you
You gotta look ahead and not behind you
She said staring at the sun wont blind you
It’s just a lie used by the world to come bind you
But I know a place they wont find you
And if you believe you can fly like I do

Absolutely beautiful the type to make you feel unsuitable
She’s uncommon aint nothing bout her usual
If you’d a known her before the transition
You’d be amazed by the change man listen
She use to go from this one to that one
To feel complete she looked for men to make it happen
Until she started asking
If all things in this world shall pass
Then show me something that’s ever lasting
That’s when she met true love
Not the word but the action
Taking her to way back when
She was Eve in the Garden of Eden
Before the apple was eaten
Before she use to be the queen of clubs
Now it seems she’s a wild card born again child of God
With a style a little odd for an normal man to marry
But she fits in just fine with the revolutionaries

Out of the cage to the wild blue
The skies too great she gotta escape and fly through
With a smile to kind of remind you
You gotta look ahead and not behind you
She said staring at the sun wont blind you
It’s just a lie used by the world to come bind you
But I know a place they wont find you
And if you believe you can fly like I do
Track Name: Apathy feat. DJ Vajra
If you’re assuming that mankind has a right to survive
Find an alternative to war before that man goes blind
With that eye for an eye talk tooth for a tooth talk
We’d all need seeing eyes dogs
And our food from a juice straw
Misusing the truth for an instrument of violence
Is like the innocent admiring the rule of a tyrant
Its fuel for a fire sent into the womb
Giving birth to the very child you meant to consume
The commune we create by meeting hate with hate
Demoralizes us humans so we can’t relate
We’re segregated in our communities
By our economical placement
But agape doesn’t recognize value it creates it
We’re born in a state where we constantly abandon
The principles of love for a complement to stand on
It’s like we in trouble and paying double for ransom
Just know that through the struggle
You got a cosmic companion
And a confidence that can’t run
From comments or handguns
When you bombing a mans home
And affecting his plans none
It reflects on his grandson the respect that that man won
Loving with no retreat
Turning cheeks when the hands come
Holding the meek for ransom
Like you care what their worth
Know the people you cant stand might inherit the earth
And this evil just cant handle when we sharing the hurt
Baring the cross staring at Who carried it first


Finding true peace is not merely the absence of tension
But the presence of justice in an act of redemption
Internationally mentioned is it locally heard
From the grave of civil rights I see the hopefuls emerge
Bodies broken into words only to grow into a statement
Never let anyone bring you so low
That you would hate them
In 1968 when that shot rang out
The lyrics “We Shall Overcome”
Is what that crowd sang out
And I believe without a doubt that every word in the song
Can be infinitely heard intently birds sing on
From the cages that bind us the inner rage that blinds us
Covering what’s written on the pages that define us
Is it the day behind us or the one that’s arrived
Making way for a path to survive
Know that love is alive and you can count on this
Ease up slow down revolutionaries bounce to this
Track Name: Call You
Seventy hours a week
It amazes me the power in her feet
With no sleep she raised me
A cocktail waitress with three babies
Who will not fail in a race to try and save me
From humiliation pain and heartache
And still I don’t hesitate to learn it the hard way
She knows she can’t control that
But I love her every effort
It just shows where her souls at
And I know that she hated our poverty
And the clothes donated by the Salvation Army
Honestly I stare at her honorably
She’s more then a mom to me
Whole-heartedly I say that
Knowing there is no pay back
For those who are constantly giving
I just pray that she knows that I care and love her
I see the cross she bares
As she walks through the struggle
And still she remains humble in uncertainty
As her life changed with two major brain surgeries
And an insurance agency she gotta argue with
To get the medicine she needs inside her arteries
And though it’s hard for me
To understand just how she does it
I know I’m a better man because of it
So many cracks that us people can fall through
Yet the love of your mother still calls you

Father is an ex-marine
And for my moms I know he’d drop everything
Reading psalms he’d stop and try to tell me things
He knew I wouldn’t understand
Until I got inside the hell of things
And the bell would ring and I would go rounds
Fighting on a similar road he had to go down
Without him I’d have no sound no soul
And definitely no rock and roll
Regardless of the copies I sold he still backs me
Reaching for that level as the devil keeps attacking me
Is this how it has to be
Well if it happens to you then it happens to me
He said that’s the meaning of family
Form a team of the people you love understand me
He always knew that there was more to me
Supporting me
Reassuring me to be proud of being Portuguese
And though I’m sure that he
Don’t understand just how I love him
The conversation we had and how I learned from them
Contemplating with dad on how the worlds turning
Concentrating on the good
When the bad is hurting someone
I heard from someone
We are the light that shines through
And it helps to know your family is right behind you
So many cracks that us people can fall through
Yet the love of your father still calls you
Track Name: Honest Mans Hustle
Let’s get it going, get it going
Let’s get it moving, get it moving
Let’s get it cracking, get it cracking
Let’s get through it, get through it
Let’s make it happen, make it happen
Let’s make it work, make it work
Make it move, make it move
Make it worth it, make it worth it
Let’s get it going, get it going
Let’s get it cracking, get it cracking
Let’s get it moving, get it moving
Let’s get through it, get through it
Let’s make it happen, male it happen
Make it work, make it work
Let’s make moves, make moves
Let’s make it worth it, make it worth it
Let’s get it going, get it going
Let’s get it moving, get it moving
Let’s get it cracking, get it cracking

Deeply embedded within the sound scapes
A contemplated wisdom
See we’re headed to where the ground breaks
Through consecrated rhythms
Confiscated back from the system
We set it free like the truth is
While wining over the interns
And leaving the industry clueless
Taking A&R’s to do list changing their priorities
Record execs like,
“Who’s this and who gave thee authority?”
Nobody we hardly the prototypes for success
Most labels with open arms
Don’t know their right from their left
So we show the light within our chest
On a road that must be reached
Passion poured within our hearts
Till it overflows in what we speak
No one knows it when they sleep
So we holler at the enslaved
Till they wake up with the same dream
That Martin Luther King gave
And all our names are engraved
On the pages of the Book of Life
The majors might have took the Mic
Just play us and the hook we write
Might insight them to bid on us
Cus I’d rather be live and direct
Then dead and ambiguous
We challenge them to sit with us
But who can blame us
On the path to being popular we’ll still be far from famous
And only my God can name us
Giving the glory to the Most High
Weather the D.J.’s are playing us or you listen in on Lo-fi
We doing it with no tie cus business is always casual
We doing it to show eyes we aint always bout the capitol
We do it cus we have to for the empty and the half full
We’re living in the actual taking the time to ask you

Can we make it happen, make it happen
Can we make it work, make it work
Can we make moves, make moves
Can we make it worth it, make it worth it
Then get it cracking, get it cracking
Then make it work, make it work
Then make it move, make it move
The make it worth it, make it worth it
And do it now, do it now
This very moment, very moment
Don’t let it go, let it go
You got to own it, got to own it
Then make it happen, make it happen
And make it work, make it work
And make moves, make moves
Lets do it now
Track Name: Constance- Joe Beats Remix
An old man vacationing he stands patently
Under a hotel sign that blinks vacancy
He’s thinking maybe he’s to late to make the drop off
Until a truck coming his way breaks and stops short
And now he’s out of sorts and you can see he’s sorta nervous
Walking to the passenger door to meet his ordered service
This is someone’s daughter working blames his conscience
The driver says, “She’s my youngest, her name is Constance.”
He comments, “…and its only six dollars per visit
Just don’t leave any marks on her, it hurts business”
Thought for a minute then confessed, “That’s fair.”
Since it was three dollars less then his cab fare
“How old are you honey?” she says, “I’m thirteen.”
Her nose was runny its raining in the Philippines
He hands over the money in a chilling scene
The truck drives off and now he’s on the hunt to kill her dreams
The sign reads no vacancy
He leads Constance to a room he has rented for taping
See he’s about to turn six into six thousand
And all you have to do is click on your web browser
It’s not illegal to use rapping as a cash crop
As long as it says she’s 18 on your laptop
The sound of rain is her backdrop laying there
Like she’s waiting for somebody to say they care
While the tears of God fall down the window pane
She feels unholy like the Father doesn’t know her name
Marry Magdalene and the women at the well
He knows everything that happens
And in His arms she fell

He’s twenty one and all alone in his household
He’s tempted by the quiet he feels and the mouse he holds
The silence of his spouse is cold
So he’s about to help that man get his six thousand gold
One click and now she’s
Withholding is conscience scrolling trough the comments
There she is looking confident a picture of Constance
In a series of video clips “Adult Content”
The title blinks in bold letters like the vacancy sign
It’s his time to go get her
It’s like his mind doesn’t know better
Her soul is crying out, “Let me go.” but he wont let her
He got her trapped inside his media player
Held captive by his need to reply her
It’s a matter of he being here and she being there
That’s why he doesn’t feel the need to care
Guilt is in the seed he bared
Spilling his shares of the profit
On a five hundred million dollar market
Where children are regarded as product
And traded like stock tips
And rapped for the sake of our pockets
His laptop sits like a window into Constance’s room
Where he exits cus its almost noon
And he’s expecting his wife home soon
With new clothes for the baby
She’d be angry if she saw his new lady
A thirteen-year-old Filipino names Constance
Trust me girl God has not forgotten
If He knew Mary Magdalene and the women at the well
He knows everything happened and in His arms she fell
Track Name: Silent Earth- Ohmega Watts Remix
Before the war of the worlds I draw closer till it’s all over
The All Knowing knocking doors till they all open
I crawl hoping for a moment to stand
Only to fall sober with an omen in hand
I call for Oprah but she won’t understand
What’s going through a mans mind media land minds
They feeding on a mans pride
Bleeding and cant find a tourniquet
This evil got its thorn in my side and keeps turning it
People we were born to survive and be permanent
The sequel is the morning we rise
The Kings returning
To keep us from burning in our own flames
Learning to speak but I’m worried if its long range
Surely the speakers will reassure they want change
Hurry the reaper is burying the whole game hold it
We maintain the same pain but can’t show it
From hand made to brand name gangs to famed poets
Planting seeds and yet they cant sow it
Got me standing in the hands of thieves
Planning a take over
I’m demanding that they break open
They the poison in the lung that shrank
From chain smoking
I blame the choking on the air that we breath
Inhale the atmosphere of careless greed
On an atlas were we share the need
But don’t care to feed the lonely
On our bodies bare the words that read
Somebody please hold me

Ever since the day that I was created
I never thought that I would state
That I wasn’t afraid to die
But today my sight is better then the naked eye
I’m a letter from the editor
Telling ya feathers were made to fly
And forever was made for I
Written within the text of intolerable sin
The blame resides
Together our names collide till the taste of bread and wine
Restore the people to the place they coincide
With the omnipotent glory of God is infinite
The intricate meanings of life define innocence
Divine instruments
Depending on who breathe through it
Designed with a sense of harmony
Arm me with sheet music
The type the meek speak fluent
Till I’m knee deep in ruins
With a seed that keeps blooming from concrete
Pursuing an illuminate kiss
Competing with a lunar eclipse
I’m speaking of the tunes we equip
With a T.V. and a super model
The inherent need to be free
From who we choose to follow
And the tools we use to hollow our existence
I refuse to loose this battle
Choose the power in resistance
In the hour of indifference where the innocent bleed
Inhale the atmosphere of careless greed
On an atlas where we share the need
But don’t care to feed the lonely
On our bodies bare the words that read
Somebody please hold me
Track Name: Keep Pace- Stro the 89th Key Remix
He’d like to break ya
Put a gun to your back try and take ya
Couldn’t run from the facts
He gotta make ya
Suffer cus your loving aint an act for fame nah
Never let him hold back your flame ya
Better then that the devil can’t change ya
On the same level with the disciples and kings
Your value is never measured by the price of your things
Your life is worth more then that
Your body is built to weather any storm in fact
We ere never meant for any harm relax
See the stars in heaven you were born for that
While the angles blowing horns
Cus your back from the dead
In a middle of a war you trapped in your head
I’d rather chase the wonder of the light instead
And keep the pace till the hunger of this child is fed
He’d like to blame ya
Get a hold of your life try and tame ya
The force behind the divorce of all nature
Running it’s coarse as the source of all anger
Got a habit of ignoring a stranger
No matter how you have it we are all in danger
Some will laugh at ya some are called to change ya
Some will blast at ya yo your drawing the same blood
Walking these killing fields
Absorbing the pain that our children feel
Restoring the Name and the will we yield
Rejoined in the same cus we will be healed
And we will overcome this depression
And the power we’ve succumb to
Will shower these blessings
When in the hour of questioning
Just remember the flowers and how God dresses them
Forget what they told ya
Love is real expect it to hold ya
The struggle you feel is helping to mold ya
The hunger is real and its felt in the soul ya
Better never let him control ya
Together as soldiers forever we’ll grow ya
Never know who will try and overthrow ya
Lie and withhold ya deny that they know ya
Who am I if I cant be
The person that I was created to be
I write a verse and relate to me
On the subject of worth I hesitated as I painted the scene
Heavy laden with a pain of a dream that’s unsung
I’m to blame when refraining to reach for someone
We the same on this earth from the dirt we have come
No matter where we’re from we’re still looking at one sun
He’d like to break ya
Put a gun to your back try and take ya
Couldn’t run from the facts he gotta make ya
Suffer cus your loving aint an act for fame nah
Never let him hold back your flame ya
Better then that the devil cant change ya
On the same level with the disciples and kings
Your value is never measured by the price of your things
Your life is worth more then that
Your body is built to weather any storm in fact
We ere never meant for any harm relax
See the stars in heaven you were born for that
While the angles blowing horns
Cus your back from the dead
In a middle of a war you trapped in your head
I’d rather chase the wonder of the light instead
And keep the pace till the hunger of this child is fed
Track Name: Strangers - PR0FiLR Remix (Bonus)
I feel alone in a world were nobody knows me
Like a leper at the gates of the city you wont hold me
Being my one and only not being the one who owns me
Its funny how you show me no fear of being lonely
But we’ll see what happens when there’s no submission
When you’re the captain of this ship
And I just wont listen
As if I just happened to get out of this stone prison
Why you laughing at my feelings right now
Like you wont miss them
It’s just another blow to the heart
Like you know when to start hitting
Cus my shoulders will drop
Holding a rock frozen till you’ve open the spot
Now you throwing the rock
Hoping to have broken the lock
Hold up stop while you take advantage of my defense
You’re damaging my reflex I can manage my secrets
When I’m standing on regrets deeper then sea gets
I’m weak from the sleepless nights speaking on respect
Just seeing how we get when we let loose
Got me feeling like we reject to see that truth
It’s the evidence the proof that were hesitant to use
Instead of getting a win it’d be better to let us loose
And weather your looking cool like who’s to blame
Or pressuring me to choose which rule s to change
I’m forever your tool in this useless game
Together baring the wound of a useless pain
Goodbye

I wish I had the courage to say to you
All the words in this song I play for you
Goodbye
I wish I had the courage to say to you
All the words in this song I play for you

Alright forget it lets get deeper
You aint thinking forever so I aint either
But yo I’m scared to be alone so I just can’t leave ya
There I said it yeah its pathetic but I can’t deceive ya
And I don’t believe ya being in the moment aint right
Yo a moments just a second when your hoping for life
And I know you don’t agree
But when your older you might
I don’t mean to condescend you
I’m just showing you light
And this advice I should take with me
After we break quickly
Walk in the opposite way
All for my sake simply
So my escape will be easier to make
In me I lack the strength to leave
Even when you’re aching me
I know it’s taken me a while to say this
I’d smile and say yes and try to look painless
Relying on my eyes more while using my brain less
You thought I was your fan base cus beauty is famous
So blame us exclusively abusively we grew to be
The two who soon will be
Singing tunes on how things use to be
When I was choosing you
But you weren’t really choosing me
Now I see we’re through
You don’t love me your just use to me
And our excuse will be how we remained strangers
And the proof will be written in the same language
The same you the same me the same us
Now that we understand this truth lets let it change us
Good bye

I wish I had the courage to say to you
All the words in this song I play for you
Goodbye
I wish I had the courage to say to you
All the words in this song I play for you
Goodbye
Track Name: Keep Pace - PR0FiLR Remix (Bonus)
He’d like to break ya
Put a gun to your back try and take ya
Couldn’t run from the facts
He gotta make ya
Suffer cus your loving aint an act for fame nah
Never let him hold back your flame ya
Better then that the devil can’t change ya
On the same level with the disciples and kings
Your value is never measured by the price of your things
Your life is worth more then that
Your body is built to weather any storm in fact
We ere never meant for any harm relax
See the stars in heaven you were born for that
While the angles blowing horns
Cus your back from the dead
In a middle of a war you trapped in your head
I’d rather chase the wonder of the light instead
And keep the pace till the hunger of this child is fed
He’d like to blame ya
Get a hold of your life try and tame ya
The force behind the divorce of all nature
Running it’s coarse as the source of all anger
Got a habit of ignoring a stranger
No matter how you have it we are all in danger
Some will laugh at ya some are called to change ya
Some will blast at ya yo your drawing the same blood
Walking these killing fields
Absorbing the pain that our children feel
Restoring the Name and the will we yield
Rejoined in the same cus we will be healed
And we will overcome this depression
And the power we’ve succumb to
Will shower these blessings
When in the hour of questioning
Just remember the flowers and how God dresses them
Forget what they told ya
Love is real expect it to hold ya
The struggle you feel is helping to mold ya
The hunger is real and its felt in the soul ya
Better never let him control ya
Together as soldiers forever we’ll grow ya
Never know who will try and overthrow ya
Lie and withhold ya deny that they know ya
Who am I if I cant be
The person that I was created to be
I write a verse and relate to me
On the subject of worth I hesitated as I painted the scene
Heavy laden with a pain of a dream that’s unsung
I’m to blame when refraining to reach for someone
We the same on this earth from the dirt we have come
No matter where we’re from we’re still looking at one sun
He’d like to break ya
Put a gun to your back try and take ya
Couldn’t run from the facts he gotta make ya
Suffer cus your loving aint an act for fame nah
Never let him hold back your flame ya
Better then that the devil cant change ya
On the same level with the disciples and kings
Your value is never measured by the price of your things
Your life is worth more then that
Your body is built to weather any storm in fact
We ere never meant for any harm relax
See the stars in heaven you were born for that
While the angles blowing horns
Cus your back from the dead
In a middle of a war you trapped in your head
I’d rather chase the wonder of the light instead
And keep the pace till the hunger of this child is fed
Track Name: Half A Dream - Mr. J."04 Remix (Bonus)
Eighteen years in the making
Her heart is heavy in fear of it breaking
And every tear is an awakening
Its brings her nearer she appears to be taken in
By the sight of a girl she doesn’t recognize
Her own image yo how could she forget those eyes
Probably cus the one that’s behind them
Has grown a little weary of the One who designed them
All she ever wanted was to feel pretty
She pours pain in her heart till it spills pity
Blind to her own masterpiece
She hangs pictures on the wall
Of people she would rather be
This isn’t how it has to be
Visit pass the screen
See how they fit false images in magazines
Media type magic photo shop press
See how it looks like plastic yo its not flesh
She’s a product of the products they sell
Another project in a marketing cell
And it’s getting even harder to tell
Herself her bodies beautiful
Trying to copy what computers do

That don’t mean nothing
Wasting your time
Looking for something you’ll never find
Look through the make up
It’s not what it seems
When will we wake up from half of a dream

His wallet size is a call to the eyes of most women
Plus the car that he drives and his bold living
Meant to symbolize he’s goal driven
Now He’s starting to wonder
Why everyone he knows is gold digging
From his home living to his bar hoping
Wherever he is he knows his credit cards got him
Feeling like a star shopping
With the fear of rock bottom
Steering his wheels and not stopping
Yeah he got problems but he wont let them find him
He’d rather not solve them then let him redefine him
See he can’t see behind them only his need to hide them
Within his dreams he ties them
On to everything he’s buying
He sees an item he makes a purchase
Never seeing inside him that there’s a greater purpose
And everything he’s paid for is straight worthless
If what he’s made for doesn’t break surface
He’s a product of the products he sells
Another project in a marketing cell
And it’s getting even harder to tell
Himself from his merchandise
The search for gold aint worth your life

That don’t mean nothing
Wasting your time
Looking for something you’ll never find
Look through the make up
It’s not what it seems
When will we wake up from half of a dream
No one ever said it was easy
Life will break you down if you let it
But you gotta work
But you gotta work through it somehow
I know how you feel believe me
You got to make a point to just stand your ground
The time is now without a doubt
We’ll get through it and figure it out
That don’t mean nothing
Wasting your time
Looking for something you’ll never find
Look through the make up
It’s not what it seems
When will we wake up from half of a dream
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